Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Midtown's Biggest Loser 2: Beauty and Perspective
So here we are again in 2010, about to crank up Midtown's Biggest Loser 2. I really can't remember if we lost last time or not, but this time we're doing it as individuals, so I won't bring Theissen down with my lack of weight loss.
Before Christmas, we did a thing at work called "Maintain for a Month", with the goal being not to gain any weight over the holidays. I weighed in on the (I'm assuming it's accurate) scale that day at 139. This is the most I can ever remember weighing. After New Year's the scale read 134.8. I am relatively proud of the fact that I didn't gain, and that I actually lost a little.
Here's the rub--lots of people, including my mom, tell me that I'm the perfect weight and that I don't need to lose any. Well, I can tell you right now that I WANT to lose weight. I don't know if I NEED to or not, but I want to. And, at the ripe old age of 31, I think that's my business. All I know is that in four years, when Jason graduates and we are sitting by a pool in an undisclosed location, I want to be concentrating on HIM and his accomplishment, and US and the great time we're having, and NOT HOW I FEEL IN A BIKINI. If that means that I need to lose a few pounds, then so be it. That's what I will do.
If you know me at all, you know that to call me a 'hyper-organized control freak' is a bit of an understatement. I seem to have gotten everything in my life (house, plan for finanaces, school, work, family, friends, love life) in satisfactory order for my ridiculus standards. But I have never been able to get my weight under control. I've read that you can only control one or two things at once, and if you try more than that, you're prone to not control anything at all. Maybe this is my problem. But I think it's time to put MYSELF first and worry about other things later.
So here are some of my 2010 goals...take my vitamins every day. cut back on the fast food. drink more water. get rid of this cold/allergy situation. get more fiber. plan my meals. cut out red meat. when I use something up, replace it with something recycled, compostable, non-toxic, or eco-friendly. buy in bulk so I don't go to Target for 'one thing' and leave with my wallet $200 lighter. In general, just try to live a more aware (of myself, others, and the planet) life.
So back to the Biggest Loser. Here's my plan, and I will need encouragement to stick to it...work out 4 times a week. This will likely be Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday. I have a treadmill at home, and I would love to be able to RUN the Gibson this year. Me and Jason will go to the gym and do weights on the weekends. Ideally, I would fit yoga in on the weekends as well. Eat right...I'm thinking high-protein yogurt and fruit for breakfast, soup and sandwich (turkey or veggie) on high-fiber bread, fruit for lunch, and either a Larabar (Bartlett nights) or fish and veggies (non-work night) for dinner. Plenty of water and tea need to be in that mix as well. Last night was kind of silly--we had Barfo Bell when I got home, and then I 'chased' my vitamins with a Gibson's lemon-filled donut. Really? That's like getting McD's and drinking a Diet Coke with it. Needless to say, I had heartburn and a nauseous tummy and puffy eyes this morning. Just all-around crappy.
So I guess the moral of this extremely long and rambling post is this: I, like so many others, need to get my ass in gear. I would like to lose 15-20 pounds. This is going to be hard. I realize that I'm never going to look like Gisele. I like to eat, I don't want to survive on lettuce, and I'm only 5'3". It's just not gonna happen. What I CAN do is strive to take care of myself and be the best Kiki that Kiki can be. I know I'm gonna slip up. I'm not going to starve myself. There is no reason that I can't be healthy and happy and just all around fabulous. I may not be the Biggest Loser, but that's ok.
On a waaaayyy side note, I found Laura Geller's Lip Heal and Seal gloss. It's the bomb. Dual-chamber tube, with color and clear. Perfect texture and it rocks in the cold weather we've been having.
Before Christmas, we did a thing at work called "Maintain for a Month", with the goal being not to gain any weight over the holidays. I weighed in on the (I'm assuming it's accurate) scale that day at 139. This is the most I can ever remember weighing. After New Year's the scale read 134.8. I am relatively proud of the fact that I didn't gain, and that I actually lost a little.
Here's the rub--lots of people, including my mom, tell me that I'm the perfect weight and that I don't need to lose any. Well, I can tell you right now that I WANT to lose weight. I don't know if I NEED to or not, but I want to. And, at the ripe old age of 31, I think that's my business. All I know is that in four years, when Jason graduates and we are sitting by a pool in an undisclosed location, I want to be concentrating on HIM and his accomplishment, and US and the great time we're having, and NOT HOW I FEEL IN A BIKINI. If that means that I need to lose a few pounds, then so be it. That's what I will do.
If you know me at all, you know that to call me a 'hyper-organized control freak' is a bit of an understatement. I seem to have gotten everything in my life (house, plan for finanaces, school, work, family, friends, love life) in satisfactory order for my ridiculus standards. But I have never been able to get my weight under control. I've read that you can only control one or two things at once, and if you try more than that, you're prone to not control anything at all. Maybe this is my problem. But I think it's time to put MYSELF first and worry about other things later.
So here are some of my 2010 goals...take my vitamins every day. cut back on the fast food. drink more water. get rid of this cold/allergy situation. get more fiber. plan my meals. cut out red meat. when I use something up, replace it with something recycled, compostable, non-toxic, or eco-friendly. buy in bulk so I don't go to Target for 'one thing' and leave with my wallet $200 lighter. In general, just try to live a more aware (of myself, others, and the planet) life.
So back to the Biggest Loser. Here's my plan, and I will need encouragement to stick to it...work out 4 times a week. This will likely be Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday. I have a treadmill at home, and I would love to be able to RUN the Gibson this year. Me and Jason will go to the gym and do weights on the weekends. Ideally, I would fit yoga in on the weekends as well. Eat right...I'm thinking high-protein yogurt and fruit for breakfast, soup and sandwich (turkey or veggie) on high-fiber bread, fruit for lunch, and either a Larabar (Bartlett nights) or fish and veggies (non-work night) for dinner. Plenty of water and tea need to be in that mix as well. Last night was kind of silly--we had Barfo Bell when I got home, and then I 'chased' my vitamins with a Gibson's lemon-filled donut. Really? That's like getting McD's and drinking a Diet Coke with it. Needless to say, I had heartburn and a nauseous tummy and puffy eyes this morning. Just all-around crappy.
So I guess the moral of this extremely long and rambling post is this: I, like so many others, need to get my ass in gear. I would like to lose 15-20 pounds. This is going to be hard. I realize that I'm never going to look like Gisele. I like to eat, I don't want to survive on lettuce, and I'm only 5'3". It's just not gonna happen. What I CAN do is strive to take care of myself and be the best Kiki that Kiki can be. I know I'm gonna slip up. I'm not going to starve myself. There is no reason that I can't be healthy and happy and just all around fabulous. I may not be the Biggest Loser, but that's ok.
On a waaaayyy side note, I found Laura Geller's Lip Heal and Seal gloss. It's the bomb. Dual-chamber tube, with color and clear. Perfect texture and it rocks in the cold weather we've been having.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Ahhh...the smell of Hemo-D in the morning
So here we are at work on another fabulously cold day. (as Ms. Stabler says, "when are they going to invent a font for sarcasm?") It's been crazy busy. Spinal fluid. Hence the delicious scent of fixative. I came home yesterday to Jason's ass in the air in the kitchen floor. He was vaccuming the coils on the refrigerator. When I looked under there I thought Baby Boy had managed to Shrinky-Dink himself and was taking a nap. It was THAT BAD. So, I just wanted to say that I love him very much for doing that without me asking. As we all know, that has not been the case with men in the past, so I thanked him with a hot chocolate from Starbucks. We had dinner at the Belmont, and came home to watch The Hangover. It was just aight. Funny in parts, but Bradley Cooper's character got on my last nerve. I worked on Smalls's scarf while I was cuddled on the couch. I have no idea how long a scarf for an almost 2-year-old should be. In the middle of the night, in between fits of "did I turn Clocky on?", I woke to the worst tummy cramp ever, and knew I had the Belmont Burger to thank for it. My vow to not eat so much meat came back with a vengeance as I writhed in pain at 3 am. Truth be told, this morning I didn't really want to eat anything.
So I think the hypnotist appointment went well on Thursday. It was really relaxing and didn't feel like anything was happening, but 1)I don't really remember what the guy said, and 2)I haven't bitten my cuticles since. Any time I move my hand to my mouth it stops for some reason. However, with all the crap I have to do for school and work and ASCLS today, I have the overwhelming urge to smoke. I hope I haven't traded one vice for another...
So I think the hypnotist appointment went well on Thursday. It was really relaxing and didn't feel like anything was happening, but 1)I don't really remember what the guy said, and 2)I haven't bitten my cuticles since. Any time I move my hand to my mouth it stops for some reason. However, with all the crap I have to do for school and work and ASCLS today, I have the overwhelming urge to smoke. I hope I haven't traded one vice for another...
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
2010...Here we go now!
So the new year is less than a week away...I'm hoping to blog a little every day. About life, movies, love, home renovation, you get the idea. Right now I'm watching Burn After Reading. Brad Pitt is tripping me out, and John Malkovich is hysterical. I miss Leslie and SP and Vag. I love Jason. I just ate a shitload of McDonald's. These are the things I know, as of right now, but next year I hope to learn a lot more about myself. Hope you enjoy!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
happiness
So I just wanted to take a moment to let everyone know that I love my life. I just felt the need to put into writing the fact that I am one of the luckiest girls in the world. If you knew me around this time last year, you know what a mess my life was. I didn't know what I wanted, there seemed to be a different guy (duds) every week, and I told my dad I never wanted to speak to him again. I went to DC and got drunk a lot and still didn't figure anything out. I leave for Chicago a week from tomorrow, and my life has done a 180. (I still don't talk to my dad, but that was a long time coming and will probably never change) Everything is pretty much under control and normal. I work a lot, have wonderful friends, and the best bf in the world. Things are not perfect, but will they ever be? In about a month and a half, J and I will have our one year anniversary. Time flies! I really do wanna be with him forever, or as Pooh says, "If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you". Yeah folks, it's THAT good. So thanks to everyone who has put up with my shit and stuck with me. You know who you are, and I love you!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Decorating Mania! on the cheap...
So, as many of you know, I am a huge fan of yard sales and the Goodwill. I think the hunt is part of it, but also because my mom raised me to never pay full price for anything. If you can wait, eventually it will go on sale. I have scored many a pair of shoes and/or handbag on sale. My fave is the $400 red Coach bag at the outlet for $100. I lust after them but can't justify it. Anyway, when H and I were married we didn't really spend much to decorate the house or buy furniture, because said income was spent mostly on alcohol. And now I really want to decorate but...I'm working two jobs, so there must be a reason I am. Hence decorating on the cheap.
I went through all the rooms in my house and set a price limit for what I was willing to spend to get that room the way I want it. I am a firm believer in doing things yourself rather than hiring someone to do it. HGTV can teach you lots. If you've ever seen my bathroom, you know how strange it is. There's tile on the CEILING people. Do you know how hard that is to clean? When you're only 5'3"? Plus, there were shower doors. I HATE shower doors. They are so insanely hard to keep soap-scum free, particularly when you loathe cleaning the bathroom like I do. So I had Jason take them down. You would not beleive the difference! I got a white cloth shower liner (no PVC--you know that smell when you open the package a new plastic liner is in? yeah, that's God knows what kind of toxins going into your lungs). The beauty of the cloth liner is that you can wash it. Meaning, you don't have to spend money on a new, toxic-laden one every few months. New silver rings, frosted plastic trash can, butterfly art for the wall...and oh yeah, the $40 shower curtain they didn't charge me for. Didn't realize it till I got home, and I'm sorry, but that's just your mistake. So the bathroom came in around $80.
I've decided to go with white for a lot of the things in my new, improved interior, mainly because it's cheery. But also, it shows cat hair less. I know, I know...what if I spill something on it? Well, you should be eating at the table, and drinking only stuff that's good for you, and last time I checked, water doesn't stain. Red wine, yes. That's why you get those handy dandy stemless wine glasses. Much harder to knock over. In the guest room, which is currently the main bedroom, I have a wonderful find. Full bed, mattress, box springs and chest of drawers for $60. Got it when I was sleeping on the couch post-D, and my boss's friend was looking to get rid of it. It's really pretty wood, and even when I move into the other bedroom, it will be a place for guests to sleep. Planning on painting this room light green next weekend. Found window film and 4 sheer white drapes on ebay for about $40 total. This will take care of the 2 windows, as I already have curtain rods. Window film is great, because it lets the light in during the day, but blocks a good bit of it too. This saves on heating and cooling bills. Plus, it's just enough to keep the light out at night, without having to invest in expensive, lined curtains. You just press it on and cut to fit. When you don't want it anymore, it peels off. I can use it to cover the window in the bathroom too. The window in the SHOWER. That's random. Target is my favorite store. Found a down-alternative comforter on sale for $29. Got a cover and 2 shams for $49. Bamboo sheets that are WAY softer than cotton for $19. Got a ceramic lamp with butterflies etched in it at Goodwill for $5. Will paint it white and use that with a shade I already have. Maybe pull a Martha and hot glue some ribbon around the bottom of the shade for color. Get a $5 frame at Garden Ridge and put a $2 butterfly print in it (yard sale), and we're good to go.
Next room, study. Need to find a couch and some shelves. And a ceiling fan. Think I can do it for under $200? We shall see...
I went through all the rooms in my house and set a price limit for what I was willing to spend to get that room the way I want it. I am a firm believer in doing things yourself rather than hiring someone to do it. HGTV can teach you lots. If you've ever seen my bathroom, you know how strange it is. There's tile on the CEILING people. Do you know how hard that is to clean? When you're only 5'3"? Plus, there were shower doors. I HATE shower doors. They are so insanely hard to keep soap-scum free, particularly when you loathe cleaning the bathroom like I do. So I had Jason take them down. You would not beleive the difference! I got a white cloth shower liner (no PVC--you know that smell when you open the package a new plastic liner is in? yeah, that's God knows what kind of toxins going into your lungs). The beauty of the cloth liner is that you can wash it. Meaning, you don't have to spend money on a new, toxic-laden one every few months. New silver rings, frosted plastic trash can, butterfly art for the wall...and oh yeah, the $40 shower curtain they didn't charge me for. Didn't realize it till I got home, and I'm sorry, but that's just your mistake. So the bathroom came in around $80.
I've decided to go with white for a lot of the things in my new, improved interior, mainly because it's cheery. But also, it shows cat hair less. I know, I know...what if I spill something on it? Well, you should be eating at the table, and drinking only stuff that's good for you, and last time I checked, water doesn't stain. Red wine, yes. That's why you get those handy dandy stemless wine glasses. Much harder to knock over. In the guest room, which is currently the main bedroom, I have a wonderful find. Full bed, mattress, box springs and chest of drawers for $60. Got it when I was sleeping on the couch post-D, and my boss's friend was looking to get rid of it. It's really pretty wood, and even when I move into the other bedroom, it will be a place for guests to sleep. Planning on painting this room light green next weekend. Found window film and 4 sheer white drapes on ebay for about $40 total. This will take care of the 2 windows, as I already have curtain rods. Window film is great, because it lets the light in during the day, but blocks a good bit of it too. This saves on heating and cooling bills. Plus, it's just enough to keep the light out at night, without having to invest in expensive, lined curtains. You just press it on and cut to fit. When you don't want it anymore, it peels off. I can use it to cover the window in the bathroom too. The window in the SHOWER. That's random. Target is my favorite store. Found a down-alternative comforter on sale for $29. Got a cover and 2 shams for $49. Bamboo sheets that are WAY softer than cotton for $19. Got a ceramic lamp with butterflies etched in it at Goodwill for $5. Will paint it white and use that with a shade I already have. Maybe pull a Martha and hot glue some ribbon around the bottom of the shade for color. Get a $5 frame at Garden Ridge and put a $2 butterfly print in it (yard sale), and we're good to go.
Next room, study. Need to find a couch and some shelves. And a ceiling fan. Think I can do it for under $200? We shall see...
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Everyone else is doing it, so why can't I?
Leslie has me inspired once again. Figured I would try to start writing at least twice a week, if only to be able to look back and laugh. Right now I'm at work (not working apparently), listening to people talk about the old days when they mouth-pipetted. The thought of someone's spinal fluid in my mouth is not appealing, especially right after lunch.
So here I am. Fabulous life, even though I work 2 jobs and have a little bit of a debt problem. 2nd job is leading to less debt, so at least I'm on the right track. Hopefully by next fall when J starts pharmacy school I will be able to be a one-job Betty Crocker with dinner on the table every night. That's pretty much my dream. Take some online stuff for my MPH. Life should continue to be good. I really want us to live together, but with his dad in Cali, he takes care of the house and two people + two houses = not the ideal living situation.
Off to work on my "how to plan a meeting" guide for the Chicago meeting. Detailed, everything I know or have learned, step by step guide to plan a continuing education meeting from start to finish. A little bit more of a project than I was anticipating, but then the best stuff always is a little more work. Hopefully I can get it on the website so newbies like me won't have to fly by the seat of their pants like I did.
Here's to blogging. And to cocktail hour!
So here I am. Fabulous life, even though I work 2 jobs and have a little bit of a debt problem. 2nd job is leading to less debt, so at least I'm on the right track. Hopefully by next fall when J starts pharmacy school I will be able to be a one-job Betty Crocker with dinner on the table every night. That's pretty much my dream. Take some online stuff for my MPH. Life should continue to be good. I really want us to live together, but with his dad in Cali, he takes care of the house and two people + two houses = not the ideal living situation.
Off to work on my "how to plan a meeting" guide for the Chicago meeting. Detailed, everything I know or have learned, step by step guide to plan a continuing education meeting from start to finish. A little bit more of a project than I was anticipating, but then the best stuff always is a little more work. Hopefully I can get it on the website so newbies like me won't have to fly by the seat of their pants like I did.
Here's to blogging. And to cocktail hour!
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